The power of desire... The fruits of our labor!

Hi there you beautiful incredible souls,I remember when I started this path... 6 years ago yesterday... And I started to get a glimpse of what life is REALLY about... And how amazing it truly is... My intention, my deepest desire.... Was to commune with God, not occasionally but all-ways.

Some people are content hanging with their spiritual guides... Which alone is a wonderful communion in itself... And anyone who reaches this point... Conscious communion... Surely has traveled high in the realms of awareness!! And as I share this, please know I love my team... Oh my goodness I love them and honor them for the most incredible patience and love they gave me each and every moment of my life.

But for me... That was not enough. I wanted to hang with the big guy... The creator of all that has been and will be created. This desire was from the get go.. Well the get go once I realized what was possible.

Then somewhere along the way... When I cannot pinpoint... Somewhere along the phases of continual shifting and reaching that occurs on this path of awareness... I started to have a clarity of mind.. A clarity of vision... That left me content with what I started to "know" and experience. The source of it all no longer mattered... I knew the force that was sharing with me... Was a pure spirit... For the first time in all my life... I didn't ask who this energy was... Maybe somewhere inside of me... I couldn't... Didn't want to know.

I have not personally worked with my spirit guides in years... I didn't realize this until this weekend... I knew I was always working with a highly evolved energy (I almost want to laugh at that statement).... When I called on my guides, they came as friends... No longer my teachers or aides... But as a friend who came to say hello and encourage me to keep reaching out... But no longer thru them...

Even when I do my readings... I do not use guides, nor tools, not anything really. Just me, the person I am connected to... And something else I never knew until this weekend. It's funny really for me to even think about... Because I never thought about it... At least not until this weekend.

Recently, I met a man who just rocked my entire Being... In a way I will never be able to fully express with my words. I wanted to know more about this man that recently rocked my world... My spirit... The core of who I Am. In trying to understand him... Our connection... I learned so much about myself.

When I met this man (and I had only met him once physically tho we talked several times over the last month or so) we stared talking about books... I will call him the number 1 fan of my magazine... My 1 issue magazine (smile)... And that is what he called me for... About my magazine... That was the connecting point of our spirits.

We talked a little bit about the book "Conversations with God"... I mentioned I picked that book up several years ago... But put it down because the page I read in it... I already knew from my own meditations... And it didn't feel right for me to purchase this book... At that time. He loved that book... It impacted him... I smiled, books are like that!

This past Thursday... My daughter was getting her hair done at the mall... Borders book store was right next door... I decided to idle away some time looking thru a book or several. "Conversations with God" was on the bookshelf in full frontal view (not binder view, but full cover view).... I picked it and started reading... And smiled a broad smile... I know this author (not the guy who wrote the book, but the energy talking to the guy who wrote the book). Even the persona of the energy was the same... I read several pages... Smiling because the information that is in this book... Is also in my book... Without distortion of context.

I put the book down... And continued with the rest of my evening. Friday morning I was supposed to finish some really past due energy readings... It was also a day I was supposed to have off to be with my new friend, but he had to go out of town, and I had promised spirit I would go to the woods and hang out with them instead... But instead I wanted to work.. I needed to catch up on these readings....

Someone put a stirrer in my brain... I couldn't read... I couldn't connect at all... Then I was pulled into meditation... And there was that familiar voice... That which I call my father... I asked him about this man... And his impact on my soul... And he told me to purchase the book Conversations with God and my answers in regard to this new person would be answered. I thought how strange... But hey I was up for a good read... I was also told to go be in the woods like I intended... yikes... But who am I to argue... If god says do something... I gotta do it.

I bought the whole 3 book compilation... Went to the park where I intended to go... And started to read... And cry... And realize.... Whom it is I have been working with thru my readings.. thu my meditations.. thru my writings... thru everything I choose to do... (that is of the highest good that is..).

That energy is God.

Funny tho.. There was a time I would have felt so small compared to that understanding... How could I dare to think, let alone accept, that what I, I do with gods hand in mine. Every word that I utter... From my heart, is gods words too... Every visual I see in a reading, is gods visuals too.

For years (and please don't take this statement as my ego.. I swear it is just a sharing) people (especially those who choose to take my spiritual development course) that they would have a horrible (at least horrible to them) week... And the moment they connected with me online or on the phone.. They felt a peace they have not had during the whole week. They felt comforted and reassured.

Now I realize why... It is gods presence that creates that feeling... I have always known it was not me offering the insight... It never has been me... Not even my readings are from me... I have always assumed it was the guides, our spiritual guides... Even tho I never seen them or felt more than 1 energy with me...In me.

I replied to a post on my Spiritual Awakening forum to my dear loving Janno on Friday.. Just moments after I came out of my meditation with God... And I could feel the words coming out of me to him... thru god... It was really gods words not mine... Even tho the feeling was mine... Ours.

But there was more to this book... This realization within me than knowing who the driving force is consciously. It also has set me up for the next stage of my journey... With an excitement I have not felt in years... Almost since the beginning of my path.

The heart of my learning... The bringing forth of my own Godly abilities... Have just begun with conscious earnest. So now all I have to do... Is become clear on where I Am going with the next phase of my lives journey... And that is where I am at in this moment... Seeking my own inner clarity... Remembering what it is I set out to do and become.

Thank you for allowing me to share, and release some of this emotion that is so welled up in me.
I love you!
Namaste,
Lisa